Enter the fat lady.

Beta result this morning was 18.

Brown bleeding is still extremely light, but the nurse expects I will start my period properly towards the end of the week when my level drops below 5.

I will get another blood test on Thursday to make sure my levels are still dropping.

My husband is driving now to pick me up from work. I don’t want to be here today.

My sister-in-law had bleeding pretty consistently throughout both her first and second trimesters and now she’s holding her healthy baby. That’s what I kept telling myself as I tried to sleep last night. But I don’t know why I thought I would be that lucky. Shit doesn’t come that easy for people like me.

What the heck did I do in a past life to deserve this? Was I Stalin? I was, wasn’t I?

I might not be having a baby but at least I’ve still got a sense of humour…….


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