He left the house for the last time just after 10.30pm on Wednesday night, to start the hour long drive back to the friend’s house where he has been staying for the past 12 days.
I lay on the floor near the front door and cried until I vomited.
While I was lying on that cold floor contemplating death and desperately hoping my husband would come back to me, he was sitting in his car in the dark changing his Facebook password.
I know this is the least of my worries, and I know that his Facebook profile isn’t my business anymore, but holy hell this makes me feel like I have been stabbed right through the heart.
Whilst I sobbed on the floor he was making rational decisions. He was being so callous and petty he even felt the need to change his Facebook password just minutes after walking out on me.
For what purpose? To completely wipe me from his life? To prove to me that I mean nothing to him?
What does that say about him? About me? About what he thinks of me? And about our relationship?
This is proof that he really doesn’t care at all and he is truly never returning to me.
Who is this man? He is not the man who vowed to love me forever. The man who used to hold me close when I couldn’t sleep at night and whisper “It’s okay baby I’ve got you and I’m never letting go.” This is not the man I still dream about whenever I close my eyes.
My heart is breaking all over again.