Hey there! My name is Sadie.
I’m a 29 year old Aussie battling infertility and desperate to be a mother.
What’s my diagnosis? So glad you asked! I have:
- severe endometriosis
- polycystic ovarian syndrome (that means I’m completely anovulatory)
- unexplained hyperprolactinemia, not related to a pituitary adenoma
- an irregular menstrual cycle which can be as short as 8 days or as long as 150 days
- dysmenorrhea – my period can last for 3 weeks and leave me barely able to walk
- blocked Fallopian tubes
- a double copy of the MTHFR gene mutation at C677T
My ex-husband Doug and I tried for years to start a family.
I had three rounds of surgery to treat my endometriosis, and two rounds of needle diathermy for my PCOS, four d&c’s, multiple dye studies on my tubes (fun!) and regular MRIs to monitor my pituitary gland. We’ve also gone through six fully stimmed IVF cycles and two frozen cycles.
My first round of IVF ended painfully with ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome. 34 eggs were picked up but only one made it to freeze. OHSS was the worst thing I’ve ever experienced and something I never want to go through again.
Following my frozen embryo transfer in March 2013 I suffered a chemical pregnancy/early miscarriage at 5 weeks, 3 days.
After our second full IVF cycle failed, my body decided to stun everyone and briefly cooperate so we went through a round of ovulation induction and I ovulated for the first time in my entire life. Sadly, that didn’t work for us, not that we were really expecting it to!
We had 7 eggs picked up during our third full IVF cycle in October 2013. We transferred two day 3 embryos and I fell pregnant but required a methotrexate injection at 6 weeks, 2 days as the pregnancy was unviable and of unknown location (it was most likely in my right tube). We were also lucky enough to have one embryo frozen, a low quality day 6 blast.
Our fourth full IVF cycle began in January 2014. We had 10 eggs picked up, 7 fertilized and two day 3 embryos transferred but unfortunately neither implanted and none of the remaining embryos were able to be frozen. It was a devastating blow for us.
After my second FET (using our low quality blast) failed we moved to a new clinic and my fifth fully stimmed IVF cycle resulted in empty follicle syndrome at egg pick-up. Just because we hadn’t dealt with enough already!
During our next cycle in April 2014 we ended up with a perfect 6AA day 5 embryo, and a lower quality embie in the freezer. We transferred our little high achiever (this time using embryo glue and taking baby aspirin daily) and once again I fell pregnant. My bhcg at 10dp5dt was 330, at 12dp5dt it rose to 805 and at 14dp5dt it jumped to 1870. At 5 weeks 1 day we had our first scan to confirm a great looking pregnancy in my uterus but at 6 weeks and 3 days I lost the baby due to a subchorionic hematoma.
Just weeks after my last pregnancy loss, Doug suddenly announced it was “all too hard” and that he needed to have kids but clearly I wasn’t going to give him any. The love of my life packed his bags, walked out the front door and I genuinely never saw him again.
The first half of 2015 was all about personal growth for me. Picking up the pieces of my shattered life, seeing my divorce finalised, selling my house in the city, buying a house near the beach and starting over with a new job and new friends.
Then in August 2015 the absolute unthinkable happened – I accidentally fell pregnant to my “rebound” man, James. To this day the doctors can’t figure out how a natural conception was possible for me.
At the time I found out I was pregnant, James and I had already broken up and went through months of terrible arguing and emotional trauma as we suddenly faced the prospect that we were going to have a child together.
I’m now just weeks away from my due date and equal parts deliriously excited and fearfully anxious at the prospect of being a single mum and what the future may bring…